BEFRIENDING THE DEEP-DARK-SADNESS
CONTEXT
A recent participant of these Mirror Sessions recently asked for some additional information. Generally, I am very quick (excited even!) to provide more information, but this case felt special. So I followed my gut + allowed an entirely different sort of response to emerge in place of ‘knowledge.’
She was asking about sadness, about uncertainty, about time. I watched as words erupted from the wisdom of my past. I found myself communicating to a question held inside the question she had asked - a deeper need.
I knew that what she felt was universal; I knew that I had lived this deeper question, too; I knew I held some of its gifts.
The following is a glimpse of that response.
EXCERPT
Aside from encouraging you to revisit the recording of our last conversation, all that I can say is that you do have what it takes to accomplish everything you intend to; you do have what it takes to become patient, to meet your Magic.
This process... It really isn't a space for words. And I should know; I’m a poet - I could give you words! But you need something deeper. What you need is to relax + to surrender to this sadness before you can ever receive its gifts. You won’t always be sad. But you will remain uncomfortable until you can learn to befriend those moments when you do feel sad. You need to literally allow yourself to feel. You need to make gentle physical space for yourself in those moments, whatever that looks like for you.
Life + things will never stop happening. You need to find a way of establishing a center for yourself in order to finally meet what's always happening. Otherwise, you'll just be pushed around as these events continue to unfold around + through you. However much time it takes for you to establish this center, it will be worth it; you will have crafted an inner space of confidence + stillness + fulfillment for the remainder of your experience.
The sooner you are able to befriend that deep-dark-sadness, the sooner it will disappear entirely from your experience in its current form. You are not here to feel sad all of the time. You are here to experience deep pleasure + unending levels of remarkable satisfaction.
But first you must befriend that great expanse of sadness. And you will do this - not by running from it, but by embracing it: by first leaning into it, and then accepting it, and then eventually befriending it. Accomplishing this will take awareness, time, and practice.
Your 'homework' will be all about uncovering the 'how' of that. How do you 'lean into' the sadness? How can you create an accepting space even when you're feeling badly?
No one can answer this for you - no matter how much you pay them, no matter how articulate or knowledgeable they may seem.
Only you can find the way into the freedom that this holds.