REFLECTIONS + INTENTIONS, PART II
:: looking ahead ::
I met 2021 in the energy of laughter, with my parents + my brother in Ohio. It was comfortable + silly, bright + warm. I had been contemplating the turn of this New Year for several days.
On the one hand, there was a desire to claim readiness for “more laughter, more lightheartedness, more enjoyment” in the coming days + year. (This persistent emphasis on “lightness” in the midst of heartache + uncertainty is a prominent intention that’s been with me since my teens.)
On the other hand, I knew that this desire to “be light” was grounded in a depth I’d never understood before this point. Somehow, Lightness was preceded by + held in a more fierce commitment: a commitment that was rooted in the same demanding choice I made last year.
It became apparent that, in order to be light, my heart required deeper, stronger, thicker roots. I was being called to sing the same song I had learned to sing last year at deeper octaves.
So here I recommit myself to Trust: the most demanding + rewarding + important lesson I have ever known up to this point.
CONTINUED…
Facing forward, I will now redouble my commitment to The Depths, the Great Unknown, the Stabilizing Force + Sightless Guidance that is Gravity.
I will choose to trust + trust + trust in ways I’ve never had the guts (or the awareness) to before. I will choose to trust that Life + Love are forces much more capable than my best understanding - that they animate my story (and direct it) if I have the strength of heart to let them move me in their way.
I redouble my commitment to Surrender - to release the need to know, control, or see the end of this unfolding story from its start. I commit to meeting moments as the fresh surprise they are, and I commit to learning more + more what it can mean to live a life of faith with no holds barred.
I commit to Patience: to the mysteries of timing that exist beyond the boundaries of my strategic thinking. I commit to Love: to love in ways I’ve never thought or known to love before.
This year, I’m resolved to Let Go, Love, and Trust - to let life move me where it will in its own time.
CONTINUED…
Yes, there is a Gravity of Heart that shows the way if we allow it. (It reveals the story step by step.) Gravity of Heart supports the Lightness I have always sought so hard by other means.
This year, I release all paths that artificially sustain the light inside me. Instead, I will resolve to trust the Ground from which the tree of Lightness naturally grows.
This will be the path I tread this year, no matter what it may require of my soul. I state it now with clarity of heart, I gladly own it.
Each of you has witnessed this intention. I am grateful. Let’s begin.