THE END OF MY SEARCH FOR THE TRUTH
There has been a shift within me. My subconscious default has changed. It’s taken my training to heart. My updated default is, ‘Thank you’ - I’ve yet to find more perfect words.
When I wake from sleep my first thought is, “Oh, thank you! Thank you for this body, these thoughts, this new day, this great bed, these fresh sheets, this soft blanket, my wonderful pillow, birdsong.” That thank-you begins, just as quickly as I become conscious, to spread + connect to the world. (No detail is lost to that grace.)
On one hand, it feels like my whole life is changing right now, overnight, very quickly. Yet it’s also clear that my whole life has led me to now: that the stories of my past converge on this point; that the rest of my life lies in wait. It’s clear that the quality of this next-life is entirely different from anything I’ve lived before.
The reason for this is profound. My whole life I’ve sought for the Truth. For the first time ever, I’m no longer seeking; I’ve found what I’ve been searching for. I’ve found what I bent my whole life, time, and purpose toward finding.
Now each puzzle piece finds its home. Now all that I’ve learned gets to live itself out as direct proof of that vital Truth.
So this is the shift I’ve encountered: that Truth now expressing through me.